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This New Feeling (Abby/Ziva, NCIS)

cross-posted to abbyziva, ncis_femslash, ncisfanfic and zivadavid

Title: This New Feeling
Rating: G
Category: Romance, Angst, Drabble
Genre: Femslash
Pairing: Ziva/Abby
Summary: I find myself vulnerable, unsure, and completely baffled by this new occurrence.
Spoilers: None.
Disclaimer: These characters belong to DPB, CBS, Paramount, et al. No copyright infringement is intended.
Author's Notes: Ziva POV. Of course. Because you know how much I enjoy writing Ziva. Um, yeah. I guess that's it.

Just when I thought I had figured out who I was, after years and years of hiding behind a mask, locking my feeling away in bulletproof boxes, I find myself vulnerable, unsure, and competely baffled by this new occurrence.

I like a woman.

Okay, so I may have felt a bit of attraction to Jenny, but that was almost purely physical, based off her looks alone. Yes, I know it is mysogynistic of me to admit that, but it is true.

It is not like that with Abby.

I have always been intrigued by Abby. She is a woman who does not conform to the standards set for most American women. Yes, Jenny is much the same way, but there are worlds of differences between the two. And I am not here to discuss Jenny. It is Abby who has caught my attention, and therefore Abby whom I shall discuss.

I was not sure how to feel about Abby at first. It was clear she resented me, wished I would go back to Israel, as my arrival at NCIS signaled the departure of her good friend, Kate. That was a bond I was, and still am, not willing to destroy. That has never been my intention. I have simply wished to find an ally in Abby, and now, I look for more in her embrace.

It is a very disconcerting feeling, not being completely aware of your heart's intentions, at first, but once the initial shock wears off, it is entirely liberating. I do not feel as if I must hide my heart anymore. I feel as though I could walk down to Abby's lab, spin her to face me, and let her know:

I find you intriguing.

I find you amazing.

You inspire me.

You are beautiful.

I am infatuated with you, Abby, and just wanted you to know.

And the most I can hope for in return, my greatest wish, is for this entrancing lady to turn to me and say:

Right back at ya, babe.



Awwwww, so sweet!
Nawww! How sweet! Poor Ziva having these thoughts for Abby... *veg*

Will snag this one for the next big update...